He's taking Lindsay LeBret.
And the scheming begins...

Burst of something. In a good way.

So I guess yeah I got an urge to ask Ryan to the Dinner Dance during 3rd period after Tommy tripped me. Don't worry, that's his way of flirting. He's one of those.
And I decided that if he said he was going with someone I'd act all excited and say "that's great!" and if he got really quiet and got a confused look on his face I'd say, "As friends, of course. What do you think I meant?"
So I called him after school. And he didn't answer. I wanted to ask him in person but Lili said I should ask him before someone else does so I called him yeah and as I already said he didn't answer. And I was on the elliptical machine when he called like an hourish later.
R:"what's up?"
and I sort of meandered into asking with whom he was going to Dinner Dance...
S: who are you going to Dinner dance with?
R:"right now I'm actually not entirely sure, why?
And I thought oh shoot he's going to ask Opel, isn't he?
S: We should go together.
R: Actually, I was going to ask you, Soph.
WHAT?! yay...!!
R: I was planning on it. But Prue Mason told Lindsay LaBret that I was going to ask her. I wasn't actually going to... but now I feel obligated to take her. I don't know what I'm going to do, or if I'm even going to go.
S: well, you should go with who you want to go with... if that's Lindsay, you should take her. And if you don't want to go, you should not go.
R: I don't know. I just... I don't know. And apparently I'm hanging out with Opel tommarow.
And I thought, here we go...
S: "Oh? that will be good."
R:"Yeah I guess.
S: "It will give you more insight into where you both stand."
R: I don't know. We both know that she doesnt always follow through with what she says.
S: Yeah...
R: I'm really sorry I didn't pick up, when you called earlier... I'm at work.
S: Ryan you didn't have to call! I'm sorry to be keeping you.
R: No, it's no problem.
S: and you called an hour after I called... don't apoligize for that... you didn't have to call. Thank you.
R: Hey, no prob. But I should get back to work.
S: Oh! Okay.
R: I'll call you later.
(which in Ryan language means "I'll see you tommarow morning")
S: Okay- bye!
R: bye.

so here's the summary:
Ryan planned to ask me to Dinner Dance. Prue told Lindsay that he was going to ask Lindsay. Now he doesnt know. And he's hanging out with Opel tommarow.
??
How icky, and yet I feel like I'm floating.

infinite xs and os
Sophie

It's quite simple: One sees clearly only with the heart.

The Little Prince

Has anyone else ever read The Little Prince?
I am most certainly not someone who reads something other than true classics or books of length and substance (which are hard to come by today.)
The thing is, The Little Prince, by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, remains my favorite book of all time. I read it first at age twelve, at which point I was the only kid I knew who was enjoying Shakespeare's Plays (well, I had been since age six... My grandmother would read them to me as a small child.) and Sense and Sensibility. Then my mom got sick, and went out and bought it for me...
The Little Prince is an absolute treasure. It is one of those books that you won't be able to put down, one of those books that you must read and re-read. It's one of those books from which learn something new every time you read it, and you notice something new with every passing year that you re-read it.
Perhaps the two most line in the entire story is:

"Here is my secret. It's quite simple:

One sees clearly only with the heart.

What is essential is invisible to the eye."

Could it be any more true?
Since I re-read it for the seventeen-thousandth time last month, I've been trying really hard to stop living any other way that with my heart first. I've been trying very hard to stop trying to see things with my eyes, and assume things. I've stopped doing things for any reason other than because it feels right inside my heart.
And Since then, I've done a lot of things in an attempt to make my life worthwhile. I think that it's important for me, at this point in my life, to stop trying so hard to live up to other people's expectations and start living up to my own. I used to think that my expectations for myself were pretty low. Now I'm realizing that they are really, really high, and that I can achieve them. I can also have what I want if I actually try.
For so long I have been afraid to try.

Until Next Post,
infinite xs and os,
Sophie